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So here is my situation, that I need a bit of advice on. I think I know the answer. But I want to get out of my own head & thoughts for a bit.
So it's been a year since my marriage ended and it was a painful & difficult break up. It's been a big readjustment to a lot of things. However, one of the things that keep coming up is the issue of relationship or getting back into one. A part of me feels like I need more time to settle myself and get things back on track, especially since I have a small daughter.
Now I have men that approach me all the time, some for good and others for evil. I have a good friend who I've known for about a while now, and he states that he likes me and would like us to get married. He has made his feelings and intentions clear, at first I thought he was joking but he is actually very serious. Now he is not a bad person. He is a Godly man, we speak about God a lot, actually 80% of our conversations are around God. He says the right things, he would do what he can for me and give me anything I want.
But I’m not attracted to him and whenever he tries to touch me I flinch or become tense. I don't know what to do, I've tried. But I’m still flinching. I don't have that desire for him. I am not sure if he knows. But he says he is the right man, and he believes God wants our relationship, shoot he even thinks we should get married!!!
I do feel a little pressured as I am not sure am ready if I am ready for any kind of relationship beyond friendship. He says he is a good man, and that I should consider things. And all the rest of the language that comes with it. He's a good man am not in doubt about that. But I don't know if he is the man for me.
So what do I do? Is not being physically attracted to someone enough not to pursue the relationship? Will the attraction come after a while? Should I give it a try just incase he is the man for me and I miss my chance?
Am kinda confused and not sure what to do.
Thank you for sharing your concerns. Good men are rare to come by these days but great sex is very important in every relationship to avoid stories that touch. In my own opinion, being in a relationship with someone you are not attracted to is a no-no unless the person is a relative of a platonic friend. You shouldn’t feel pressured or coerced into a relationship with anyone you don’t see yourself sexually attracted to. Flinching at his touch raises red flags for me, because it indicates you are far from the same level of attraction with him.
If he says he’s gotten clearance from God, have you? God speaks to us all when we listen so don’t believe that story unless you hear it yourself from Jah Himself. Also how is he all Godly yet willing to fornicate with you? Pardon my seemingly self-righteousness, but I don’t buy into stuff like that. I’m no saint myself, but I would rather people lay their cards on the table rather than hide behind their religion. Then again, what do I know? Christianity has taken a whole new dimension in modern times.
Anyway, back to the issue at hand are you willing to give up the big ‘O’ for mere platonic relationship or would you rather fake the ‘O’s’ in order to keep your relationship with him? If he was suggesting dating without intimacy and allowing the love blossom, I wouldn’t mind. That could work out well, but to get intimate when you are not feeling him, is rather awkward and you might end up detesting him for coercing you into it.
I’d say give it more time and see how it goes. You are young, smart and beautiful and you have your whole life ahead of you so take your time and get right the next time around.
I hope I have been helpful and I sincerely wish you all the best.